Sunday, June 24, 2012

Rome!!

My dream has come true! I'm in Rome!

I have spent 3 days here so far and I'm in love.  I got a SUPER cheap flight here (as in less than a tank of gas) and it's been a blast. I mean, I've seen everything and I'm so overwhelmed with history and joy at the same time.

Yesterday was my favorite day, for sure.  We woke up later in the day and kind of lazed around for a bit.  Then we went to the Colosseum (yay!!!) and Palatine Hill (which is where Rome was founded and where all of the Kings/Emperors of Rome lived).  Joanna and I paid for a guided tour and it was worth every single penny.  When we met up with the guys after the tour, I wanted to spill all of my guts to them about everything that I learned, but they didn't really care (I mean...that's why they didn't pay for the tour, after all).  I learned SO much and I was freaking out the whole time, to be honest.  I just loved every.single.minute.

After, we came back and made some dinner at our B&B before heading out into the city for the night time stuff.  We started out with gelato (delicious!) and then we went to the Vatican at night, which was awesome as well.  Then we headed over the bridges and made our way to the Trevi fountain, the Pantheon, as well as some other night time wondering.  Then we stayed up until past 2 int he morning to play our favorite card game.  Stellar day, to say the least.

We're heading out to dinner now for some more pizza and gelato probably. I've got some great pictures because Joanna let me borrow her awesome camera, but I'll have to post those when I get them loaded up when I'm home.

Goodbyes

Goodbyes have started and goodbyes are no fun.

I made my way to Prague for two goodbyes- to Prague itself and to my friend, Sharon.  Sharon was one of my best friends while in Europe and it was hard to say goodbye.  Even though we lived in different cities throughout this past year, we stayed in touch and kept each other updated on the other person's life.  Plus, we have an awesome relationship that picks up right where it leaves off whenever we're together again.

Next week, I'm heading to Amsterdam to say goodbye to 3 very dear friends of mine and it makes me even more sad.  Then Budapest is going to be SO full of goodbyes that I'm SUPER not looking forward to doing.

However, goodbyes are a natural part of life and it's something that we have to live with.  Growing up in the military, I'm used to it, but I have to say that I'm a bit out of practice since high school since I haven't moved around a ton and I haven't had to say goodbye to the friends that are the closest to me.

But, hopefully, these won't be goodbyes for many people for a long time.  Hopefully, it's more of a "see you later" instead.  We'll see.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Heart of Fear

I think that it's built into the very core of our human nature to be afraid of the unknown.  I mean, look at people who are afraid of the dark.  It's not the dark itself, but it's the fear of what could be hiding in that darkness.

We all have fears.

I have fears.

That I won't find a job to support me in America.

That I'll be single for longer than I ever imagined.

That I'll never be the witness that I'm supposed to be.

We all have fears.

However, we have a God that is bigger than our fears.  In my absolute favorite book of all time, Redeeming Love, God speaks to one of the characters and says, "I have not given you a heart of fear".

God has everything in his control and he knows every single step that we will ever take and know every decision that we will ever make before we even have cause to think about it.  Therefore, all we have to do is follow Jesus and he will guide our steps for us.  Always easier said than done.

You see, we are blessed with a God that is ALWAYS there for us.  In the dark times of our lives.  In the silent times of our lives.  In the crappiest times of our lives.  But, we don't have to fear because of that.  We can give those emotions to God and he will gladly accept them and acknowledge them.  It doesn't necessarily make our journey any easier to accept or complete, but it does make it easier to know that we can NEVER go wrong if we are following the One that has our lives in His hands.